I had three classes today, and I cleaned my room here in Batangas. I was also able to catch up on a few self-care habits such as skin care and proper diet. Yay! Some days I really feel like shit, but some days I have energy to catch up with life.
DEPRESSION, A WORD THAT DEPRESSES ME?
I have always been too scared to use this term to describe certain feelings I experience from time to time because I know it’s a clinical term that has a particular definition that separates itself from a typical seasonal or circumstantial sadness. When I said that there were “some days I feel like shit”, I do feel like shit. On days like these, I feel like (or so I think) I have migraine, I’m lazy af, and I don’t want to do anything productive. I just want to curl in the bed and procrastinate.
“Everyone needs to have a self-care slash mental health break”, they say, but whenever I try to give myself a break by not forcing myself to be productive whenever feeling this way, I always end up scrolling through social media and ending up feeling even lonelier, for so many reasons.
Perhaps I need to stop using social media, no? I’ve had millions of attempts in the past on this. I have completely eliminated Facebook since 2018, but I am still working on minimizing my Instagram usage. I have already gotten rid of my ‘influencer’ account, I even have a hard rule to only upload black and white photos to limit myself, and only follow a few people with content I’m actually enjoying, but none of them is working. I am using reddit and Twitter as well.
This September, I made a vow not to use social media on weekdays, and I’m hoping to stick to it and see how my life in general would improve, and how my mental health will benefit from it. “Therapy is expensive”, they say, so I need to find ways to have alternatives. I decided to try to devote my time adding content to this blog instead of social media, and I think it’s a good idea.
I’m also working on exercising (hiking to be exact) and getting enough sleep. That’s big for me, you know!
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ZENDAYA’S REWRITE THE STARS AND HOW I WILL KEEP ON REWRITING MY OWN STARS
I have been constantly listening to different types of music since I started trying daily vlogs last month. I got introduced to a bunch of indie songs that became popular on Tiktok, as well as a new set of music genres. I am starting to enjoy music again, and I’ve been wanting to go back learning to DJ mix songs better!
Anyhoo, I came across Zendaya’s songs, and I’m kinda frustrated that I only got to realize now that the song ‘Rewrite the Stars’ is her song with Zac Efron! I have not seen the movie ‘The Greatest Showman’ yet (my sister have been recommending me to watch it since she enjoyed it so much), but I think this is the sign to consider watching it.
I love the lyrics of this song. I know it’s about someone’s determination to be with the love of his life and ‘rewrite the stars’ so that it could align in favor of them, but it touched me in a way that in this life, we can always ‘rewrite the stars’ and persist on achieving your dreams even if the stars and the universe seem to be saying no to you.
Obviously it’s totally against the ‘laws of the universe’, but hey, I did it so many times in life, and I’m going to be doing more of it. I’m rewriting the stars more when I turn 30, and that’s just the start.
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MONEY HEIST IS ON SEASON 5 AND I’VE ONLY JUST BEGUN
From time to time, I would ask my students for movie, TV shows, podcasts, and book recommendations so that I will have something new to discover for myself. I don’t mind if their choices have references to the Gen Z age group and I’m a millennial, I could still relate to them in so many ways.
From my random polls, I would always, always encounter an answer ‘Money Heist‘ or ‘La Casa de Papel’, but I never had the chance to watch it. I always wanted to, but I think I forget it all the time.
Last 2019, I’ve observed that the heist uniform of the cast became a popular Halloween costume, and that’s when I realized it’s that popular! Also, whenever I try to Google ‘Professor’ (because that’s my profession), I would somehow always get redirected to Money Heist content, since one of the main characters has ‘Professor’ as his alias. Lastly, what I found out is that the aliases of the characters are names of cities. People I know would know how much I love cities! I’m definitely watching this and will try to catch up to see if it’s that good.
Update: I just watched the pilot episode, and omg I’m already hooked! Now I have my new favorite TV show! Plus, since I’m starting to re-learn Spanish, I would want to try to watch it in Spanish next time.
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Just rambling as usual,
Sherr 😀